El mae M
2 min readMay 2, 2021

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I’ve had 48 DDs since age 15. I know some women think they want bigger boobs but honestly you don’t. I am not a very sexual person. I just have big boobs. It’s sort of like a cosmic joke played on me I think. There are hundreds of women who fall into my same interest range. I like Ancient civilizations and Classics. A lot of the women who have my same interests don’t have 48DDs. So they are often overlooked in public spaces to go off and do their own thing. Some women have such slim figures that the first thing men notice about them is their face and if it’s pretty or not. I could see men going up to them and having a conversation with their face. When you see those pornstars with naturally huge boobs that’s sort of what I look like. Men cannot ignore my proportions. Even male friends I have who I think try really hard not to notice can’t avoid it. I’ve never gotten a piercing, a tattoo or plastic surgery. So there is very little chance I’m going to cut up my body that I was born with just because society has issues with it.

Maybe if I was a different person and cared about different things. I could use my boobs like social capital. Manipulating and controlling the people around me. But that is not who I am. I could care less if I’m the center of attention. I’m not after your man. Unless he can talk to me about Francis Bacon, I’m not interested.

This is the main reason having big boobs is not ideal in this society. A lot of women have issues with me. Women that have never had a conversation with me. I hear about their dislike of me after the fact. I then always end up finding out they liked a particular guy. Usually it’s a guy I didn’t even notice was in the same room with me. There are very few men that I even look up from my phone for. Because as I mentioned before I’m not a sexual person. This gets misinterpreted as being stuck up. I’m not ignoring your man because I think I’m too good for him. I’m ignoring him because I’m playing chess on my phone. Your man couldn’t possibly stimulate me in the way learning something new does. To me learning feels better than sex. I know I sound corny or weird to the majority of people reading this. Sexual pleasure feels different than learning something but in my personal opinion learning feels better to me . I’m just built different and I clearly was never made to fit into this society. The gods also thought my figure would be a great joke for them to enjoy apparently.

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El mae M
El mae M

Written by El mae M

Human Rights.Social Theory. Hermeticism. Ancient History. Literature. Biracial -Transracial- Adoptee

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