No it’s not unflattering, it’s true. I know I need help but this society comes up severely lacking in their ability to do that because they created the problems in the first place. It wasn’t until I started researching online that I realized my sociological situation and upbringing was incredibly rare. Any sociologist in 2021 could have predicted negative results from the factors surrounding me. I thought it was normal. The other problem is that I know that therapy is a way for the society to avoid responsibility. Most people getting counseling are there to help integrate them more smoothly back into society. I’m fully aware the society is the problem. Treating one symptom of society’s sickness (me) will never achieve long term results. So, I must write. I must keep telling my story in the best way I can make sense of it. I’m not a danger in any way to anything except for the status quo. I found freemasonry to help me deal with my emotions. Also when you educate a disjointed passionate mind it helps create more clear outcomes. So anything that makes me upset I seek to educate myself into subjectivity. I see the race issues in America from all angles. Only one angle will produce the desired results aimed at by BLM and it is not police reform. What good is not killing black people at traffic stops if the society has already taken their life?