Were you raised in white culture too? I have no problem calling out their pedophilia problem. I was molested by two different white men as well. When I was 4 and 6. I do want to caveat this with my adoptive family has nothing to do with this problem. It is a problem I observed from being raised around almost exclusively white people. I knew a lot of white kids who had been molested just like me. But this has nothing to do with my actual adoptive white family it was primarily men who preyed on my mother and I’s vulnerability.
This might be a little more layered than people are willing to go with this but this problem within their culture stems back to antiquity.
I have a theory that white people’s unpredictability comes from the same PTSD you mention you now suffer from.
If you study serial killer’s childhoods you will find often childhood sexual abuse or extreme physical abuse. It’s usually sexual abuse though.
I believe that the reason they act out violently is tied to the high prevalence of pedophilia (childhood trauma) within their culture.
They even tried this on African Americans during slavery where the white slave masters would rape black children and also Buck Break black men.
Essentially, I believe that sexual violence creates trauma which manifests as adult violence in males. For whatever reason women do not seem to respond to sexual trauma with adult violence very often.
I think of this scenario. It’s a weird one but back when humans lived in tribes it would have only taken one male assault on one child to decimate the entire tribe. There is something about trauma and PTSD that makes the response to sexual trauma so unpredictable. It can manifest itself in the adult as rape, murder or a continuation of pedophilia or all three. If one male child within a tribe suffered childhood sexual assault this would be enough for him to damage his entire tribe. This silent killer would then spread until you have entire cultures of people with violent tendencies. They then leave a place like Scandinavia and all their men start raping and killing other human beings (acting out their trauma). Bringing with them practices of pedophilia and rape which would lead to violence and the cycle continues.
I know this is a bit much but I firmly believe childhood trauma is responsible for the mass societal issues in the Western world. War, rape, violence etc has sort of blown up on a mass scale from one tribe or a group of tribes to a sickness that plagues almost the entire planet.
